overwhelmed

do you ever have those moment where you are so completely overwhelmed you don't even know where to begin? i do. especially right now.

i had a chat with a good friend and while we talked about how thrilling and exciting life can be at this age, there is no doubt that it is one of the hardest.

why didn't anyone tell me that i would be this young when i had to make such life changing decisions, face some of my biggest fears, overcome the hardest challenges, and want to give up so frequently. probably because i would've thrown a fit and chances are someone (my kind parents) did warn me but i decided that i was an exception or they were nagging a little too much.

school is going to be the death of me, my job/s seem like they are never going to run smoothly, my money goes in my hand for about 5 minutes and has to go to someone else...so not fair, i feel lazy and unproductive and therefore i've decided that rather then thinking of who i want to become i need to just become these things now, because "now is the time"

i want to be a better person, i want to get more done.

i want to be on top of things, follow the schedule i set for myself.

i want to conquer my fears and reach my goals.

i want to cook more, i want to be a gourmet cook so that one day i can prepare beautiful meals

i want to recover a chair

i want to sew my own clothes

i want to get good grades

i want to save money. and spend money unfortunately

i want to buy my own car

i really want to blog more

i want to study the scriptures more frequently

i want to make smart decisions and feel good about them

i want to serve more. especially those i'm closest too

thats enough for now, but really...i need to stop feeling overwhelmed and just be productive.